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2006-10-24T11:12:00.000+08:00

MOVED. the-deprecated.blogspot.com

2006-10-19T20:38:00.000+08:00

mdm dhillon said we have to study 8 hrs a day.

oh crap, i think i sleep almost 12 hrs and study as minimal as 2-4hours a day. :/

2006-10-16T20:35:00.000+08:00

ah, the internet addiction is harmful >;( i slept a lot today due to the irritating haze. i think i'll mugggggg later :) not gnna come online tmr mans. haha.

enjoyed studying with jef, aloy, randolph yesterday at the airport. i loooove the airport :)

sat; went to open house with aloy and huilin. haha liyun and fiona joined us on our tour around.. huilin and liyun can make good friends alr man hahaha =p oh mann i'm starting to grow a liking for AC aft the open house :) the band's awesome too woohoohoo.

aft tht me and aloy headed down to sa. chengfu met us. woo SA band's sound is solid. haha. just a pity tht i dont like the conductor so i wont join band even if i go SA anyway. no offence to anyone. hmmm. basically its okay lor.

we went to toapayoh centrl and spent the evening there walking and talking and eating :) haha. quite a nice day

2006-10-16T11:00:00.000+08:00

FIGHT OLVLS!!

2006-10-12T17:44:00.000+08:00

i want this pair of shoes! >;(

anyways, its the last schl day for me today. i'm kinda glad.. basically nothing today made me really happy, except the fact tht mr lim treated us icecream today yummy. icecreams always make me happy :)

partially glad tht i wasn't invited by a particular grp, cus i'd not know how to communicate with them anyway.its weird but sometimes they seem easy to talk to, but other times i seem to be out of the circle. i'm always left out most of the time when it comes to appointments. ah heck. i hope i'll forge better friendship in my jc years! *cross fingers*

anyhows, acjc and sajc open house on sat, rather exciting :)

ohwelll, i think im gonna change new blog add soon.. so tht i'll have a whole new beginning and a fresh start to welcome my new year! new chapter of life! i'm so glad! but i'm quite sad to part with teachers that are close to my heart.. like mrs tay ph, mr lim, wang lao shi... these people made huge impact in my schl life and made sch more enjoyable.. :) yeah.. haha. woo this is such a long entry for like how long in my life.

i need my nap! bye :)

2006-10-09T21:30:00.000+08:00

i'm just an outsider, a stranger to the circle. the uninvited. now the circle seem to grow bigger and bigger, and i seem to be more distant to a lot more people tht i didnt expect myself to be. it's funny how things can change so quickly, how people can change so quickly. but perhaps in the first place, closeness was never achieved. all was perhaps just a front.

oh its not a one liner thingy. try decipher my thoughts if you want. ha.

anyways, there's probably gonna be a chalet for my pri sch classmates during sch hols or first 3 mths :):) gnna be exciting. haha.

and aft 2 years, i spoke to shawn again on the phone (well, according to him.. i didnt noe i spoke to him on the phone before) last night. it's kinda cool, he's like doing attachment to PAP or smth, and have to go for meet-the-people sessions. hahah.

went studying with fiona tday. :) yeah it was so-so productivity lah. bought myself bag and earrings :)

i'm currently overloaded with fatigue. i guess its high time for me to indulge in studying so as to forget the emotions that are overwhelming me.

2006-10-08T20:42:00.000+08:00

i'm so gonna watch phantom of the opera when it comes march 2007! :) :)

read more here:
http://sg.news.yahoo.com/061003/5/singapore233761.html

2006-10-07T09:18:00.000+08:00

haha random realisation - the girls in the neoprint all went to girls schl after psle. hurhur.

and the haze is super terrible. last night it was so hazy. today still the same. urgh.

2006-10-06T22:52:00.000+08:00

pri sch pals (mich, ruoen, junrui & i )

happy birthday, dad.

hmm i miss band.. esp days at the Genting

i hope you people have experienced how hurting it is to be uninvited. then u'd noe how i feel sometimes.

okay, thats lots of random thoughts. anyway i was not productive today. better start studying now. bye folks.

1 month and 10 days to total freedom. alas! that means even lesser days to prepare for the big(literally in this entry and non-literally) O's.

2006-10-05T21:31:00.000+08:00

anderson prelim 2006 physics paper drained the hell out of me. seriously, i have no affinity with physics. practically left 1/2 of the paper blank. -.-

Baccalaurette service was quite cool, it made me feel a lil scared watching the rituals. The teachers' message stirred up some emotions in me but i didn't cry.. but everyone around me was crying. haha.

i really dont know if ac's still the choice for me. i wanna go for the cca and friends, but not for the PE lessons and travelling time. but if i dont go ac, i dont know whr to go. i dont even noe if i can even make it. friends who want to go ac score like what? 6 pts to 9pts. crazy people.

well anyway kengwai came over to my house tday to pass me his schl paper. haha "fedex delivery", he call it. then ruoen came over for the same reason but stayed for a while. it's so quick.. i still can clearly recall how it was like to receive my PSLE results. and tada, olvls soon. i bet it'll be very soon tht i'll be saying this again, taking my A's.

ok i shall work on my math again. at least math makes me happy unlike PHYSICS. urgh

2006-10-03T18:35:00.000+08:00

just for laughs:

2006-10-01T21:50:00.000+08:00

crashed the national lib at bugis with debbie, jefri, huilin, randolph. debbie reached at 10, while i reached at 1030am.. and i had to walk out so many times to fetch e others. managed to finish english, physics and math hw. and a lil of amath. then we did some photocopying from each other's pile of schl papers. haha. my first time operating the photocopying machine damn cool la! left around 630pm. thts 8 hrs in bugis. haha.

ate at jack's place with family for dad's bday celebration :)

gd luck to those having N's tmr. :) this reminds me - O's in 1 more mth. oh shit.

2006-09-30T22:56:00.000+08:00

forbidden city rocks :D :D
for those who missed the musical, basically it's about a misunderstood empress and her ill-fated life. and an artist who fell in love with a journalist jerk (who tricked her into loving him or smth), and then gotten used by him(typical males.... HAHA).
but anyhows, i love the soundtracks!

got my prom dress at $63. quite a steal.

gnna study with some of my nco friends tmr at national lib :)

"the fire that burns within your heart
the pain that tears your life apart
the rain that falls from broken skies
the love i lost beneath the lies"
-why dream of love, The Forbidden City

2006-09-30T09:39:00.000+08:00

ok i think i shld post a lil longer than all my prev posts. but then again, who's actually reading anyway?

simple update:
mon- results back
tue,wed-lessons + home to study
thurs- lessons + ate kfc with jue & cmk
fri- lessons + chem intensive, which was quite fun & hilarious because of people from 4A2 and 4A3 ~~(seriously i think my class is too boring, whenever they're around for chem, it doesn seem as fun as yesterday's lesson)~~, just except the fact tht ms ferng let us off late :/ ;then studied at macs with maryanne, lydia, liyun, pauline, celeste till around 845pm.

today i'm going to watch Forbidden City! then perhaps go shop around for my dress and perhaps i may get the wedges i wanted! haha yay :)

2006-09-29T22:38:00.000+08:00

it's like whenever i set my mind to go to whichever schl, there'll bound to be something tht makes me want to change my mind.

now i'm so unsure which route to take again.

2006-09-25T17:24:00.000+08:00

prelims result are back. sciences not well done at all, but other than tht i guess i kind of improved from mid yr.. better l1r5 than mids. i think i can make it to acjc as long as smart people don't snatch my space from me. haha people who are like 6pt-ers in my sch are aiming for acjc too because they prefer a christian jc. :(

ok time to start mugging mugging mugging.

2006-09-24T20:32:00.000+08:00

只要相信，就会看见幸福绿光 (chinese words; switch to unicode to read)

fri;
cartel-ed with sch mates, then met ying & elisa.

sat;
went out with junrui, michelle (who has come back for visiting from aust) and her friend cheryl(sp?). quite fun :). ruoen came aft dinner and met us :) then we took neos :) lazy to scan la. nxt time or smth

sun;
spent the whole day at home chiong-ing Green Forest, My Home. omg so nice but yeah, all dramas are dramatic. doesnt happen in real life. haha. :) Mich came over to my house and i copied Goong (princess hour) and wang zi bian qing wa into my hard disk. so tempting to watch la! haha persevere! aft o's i shall chiong these dramas! hahaa.

oh no, rest of the prelims result tmr. below 14 pts please and NO C5 PLEASE! i dont wanna stay back aft sch for lessons ):

photos below

2006-09-23T13:46:00.000+08:00

suddenly, i love the indulgence of drama serials. Because they allow me to forget about reality.

2006-09-21T21:30:00.000+08:00

what else can i say? I'm tired of feeling like this. i need a person who realises how i feel before i make my feelings known out aloud.

much on the brighter side, watching green forest, my home (lv4 guang1 sen1 lin2 in chi) made my day (ya la im super slow but i had prelims ok!). The green light will appear only when you believe :) a story of faith and trust. 10 more disc to go! and i believe tht life will turn out for the better.. just maybe next year :)

brighter note of the day - no tuition on sunday. & acjc talk in schl tmr i think :)

then again, prelim english results tmr. oh shucks.

2006-09-21T05:59:00.000+08:00

oh die i just realised 14oct is acjc's open house and i got to attend my godbro's wedding on tht day (he's my real godbrother so i'm like quite impt there i think? hahaha) and speaking of which i havent got my dress or whatsoever to wear for his wedding. ahhhhhh die!

2006-09-20T20:53:00.000+08:00

In my opinion, the movie Little Man is more than just a crude comedy - it has elements of desire and influences. It showcases one's desire to be a father, and how much one is willing to sacrifice in order to attain that. It also shows how one can influence the other to go on the right track and touch on their soft side. I feel that the critics are not just enough to give them 2 stars. I'd give them 4 myself :) Crude jokes aside, it is a wonderful movie.

yep yep, i went movie-ing with sam today (yes movie again) but i didnt regret. :) she came over my house to borrow vcds and we watched disc 1 of scary movie 3 haha wth super rubbish show. then went over to hers to get vcds from her for myself to watch.

right now, singapore idol on tv :D bye!

2006-09-19T20:23:00.000+08:00

yes prelims officially over. Watched The Banquet with Cel today at The Cathay :] must say the $7 is definitely worth it! haha. Although it's a tragic story. I strongly recommend you to watch it if u havent.. the action and the plot's pretty good. but i must warn you tht it's rather bloody and gruesome.. thts why its nc16. haha.

i hope i get below 15 for prelims i wanna get the extra study leave and i don't want any c5 for any subs! or else i must stay back for intensive lessons in the afternoon. haha. oh gosh. i'm super scared for phys :(

ok i don't know what to blog already. bye folks!

2006-09-18T20:25:00.000+08:00

slacked the whole day. gnna mug my ass off for chem p1 now.
looking forward to tomorrow, watching the banquet with cel :)
daniel wu :D~
and wed i think i'm watching another movie with sam they all again. LOL. -shrugs.

but i'm so not lookin forward t fri :( because prelims results are gnna be back on friday. well thts what mr low told me.urgh. kinda scared.

2006-09-17T22:06:00.000+08:00

IMAGE HEAVY

weekends were great family bonding time, havent been out with them since months before prelims. :) watched Singapore Dreaming yesterday (not very nice, not recommended). yep, the rest just see the photos (below) lah :)

anyway i bought a new phone. n6280 :) haha. and i collected my forbidden city tickets already :) :)

oh i have no schl tmr and wed ;D oh glorious sleep! good luck to those having papers tmr :)

and so many great movies are coming out! i wanna watch Little Man, The Banquet, Gigolo Wannabe, John Tucker must die, (and coming soon) You, me and dupree, the guardian, and even charlotte's web! But so near the exams >;(
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making potato salad for lunch.

then i went out with my family =D

on the way.. :)

(haha i contrasted it a lil to give an eerie look)

nlb bishan :)

dinner time :)

shrimp dumplings

some dumpling with vegetables in it.. haha

the tea they serve :)

ginger..

chilli :)

2006-09-15T23:05:00.000+08:00

yay chem p2 and amath p2 over. quite ok for today. left chem p1.

and the olvls. hahaha.

oh, just came back not long ago from watching The Host with anwaar, junrui, samantha. $9.50. i think movies are such a rip off but i enjoy watching them in cinemas compared to home. but better movie please. hahaha.

gonna sleep. i'm so physically, emotionally and mentally drained from prelims.

2006-09-15T06:20:00.000+08:00

hello im here to blog, although yes, my exams are not officially over yet. but i guess it's somewhat considered over by the end of today :D

so far all the papers were quite manageable till i'm quite afraid of the other upcoming papers - possibility of killer papers are high. and true enough, i'm killed once again by physics (whats new). so now i place all my hopes on chemistry for my l1r5. haha.

oh yes, i'm going to watch forbidden city with mum and bro on the 30th! haha soso glad that we are. i thought she wouldnt let us =d i guess it'll be a good bonding time as well as being culturally/artisically nourished.

anw darshy wanted me to do this like donkey years ago but i didnt so shall do this now :)

seven RANDOM facts about me:
- i love photography!
-and sleeping too!
- and music too too!
- i was from the band and most probably will be once again
- i'm really friendly, just a matter of whether u talk to me or not.
- i daydream
- i love my family :)

seven things that scare me:
-cockroach
-lightning
-darkness
-horror movies HAHA
-any flying insects.
-failing
-backstabbing.

seven favourite songs:
-iris- goo goo dolls
-mixed tape- jack's mannequin
-burned - better than ezra
-boston - augustana
-chasing cars - snow patrol
- run- snow patrol
- rise from the ashes - quietdrive

seven things i like most:
-presents
-handphone
-photos
-computer
-ipod
-camera
-bed
-money to shop. haha

seven people to do this:
-maryanne
-eve
-candice ho
-celeste
-valencia
-nco friends!
-anyone else la

ok time to go to schl. byebye :)

2006-09-09T09:54:00.000+08:00

i miss 31st nco camp 2005 >:(

(look at how dark me&cel were then.)

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bro&i(haha so unglam)

well i managed to complete ss! what's left now is geog and lit (oh gosh im so dead) and if time permits, physics before the series of exams begin on monday. This is perhaps my last entry before prelims are over (well at least thts what i hope). I'm so glad tht i dont have to go to schl on 18th! haha. going to celebrate ying's bday with her :)

i had a nightmare. :/ i dreamt tht for chem p2, i dont know how to do all the qn so i fell asleep(?!). then i requested for a re-exam and ms ferng doesnt allow me to! omg. so lame. haha. but still, it's a lil scary. esp its PRELIMS we're talking about. oh gawd oh gawd. haha.

i'll slack for a while more and time to start my engine. vroom!

2006-09-07T11:02:00.000+08:00

studying ss is such a chore. I almost died after reading thru 1 1/2 chaps from book 4. I managed to persevere and finished... *drumrolls* 2 chapters! (which i don't remember one of them).

oh my ipod's having problem >;( i dont know how to repair it.

yesterday, i merely did emath. 1 paper for the whole day. come to think of it, it was kind of pathetic. went for the so called "commercial break frm studying" with samantha and anwaar. caught Love Wrecked, starring jonathan bennet (picture above) & amanda bynes. Pretty cool movie, except there were some predictable parts, as well as exaggerated ones. Well at least, it was more worth for money than Devil wear prada and monster house, which both, unfortunately, were quite disappointing in my opinion.

kaiwei & junrui joined us to get reca's bday gift, then we headed for her house. gave her the gifts and went home. It was a "commercial break" that lasted for 4-5hours. oh gosh. haha.

Watched SG idol too. oh man, jonanthan sang my favourite song. And he did it well! I don't have any favourite idol of any sort, but i'd very much want to see jonanthan and hady in the finals. :]

spoke to maryanne on the phone aft idols. oh man i miss the NCO camp, esp aft hearing her talk about it. She got leon as tutor too! haha. theyre playing pieces like jericho, merry widow, incredibles and abba gold this yr for NCO. so cool! And i think mary's going for CNL concert >;( why CNL concert always clash with impt exams.. :(

if i lay here
if i just lay here
Would you lie beside me and just forget the world?

2006-09-05T20:02:00.000+08:00

it's no wonder they say, the truth hurts.
and i dont deny my disappointment

well, guess i'll just spread my love to my studies instead of friendship. because acjc's waiting for me. :)

snow patrol's become my 2nd all time favourite :)

Snow Patrol - Run

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

2006-09-04T23:20:00.000+08:00

just came back frm samantha's house. had great time "prank"-ing old friends and then catch up with them. oh felicia came over too. haha. these few days have been awesome for me :)

2006-09-04T20:04:00.000+08:00

You people must be wondering why i suddenly wrote abt the entry on old friendships. Well i don't think it refers to you (if anyone is even reading), unless you're guilty of it.

just on this yr's tchers day celebration day, i heard about my ex classmate (whom i hope won't read this) shao xuan who said tht he wont go back to pri schl cus it's "living in the past" and even ask others to "move on" (and ironically, he takes history i think). Next, on that day itself, we saw samuel. we said hi but he was like damn dao. then when his friends asked if we were his friend, he said no.

That, is super hurting.

It's quite sad to see how some people can change for the worse, yet happy as some changed for the better. I talked to my mum about this and she laughed at the idea of "past and present friendship". Because 30+ yrs after secondary schl education, she is still in contact with her secondary schl mates and rant to them about the not-so-nice colleagues in her working place.

I guess perhaps like what Anwaar says, there are two kind of people. One who divide the line clearly, while others who have a good mix of friends. I'm glad that there's still a handful of them who are like the latter :)

well today, khatib cc-ed again. This time with more people and i was only 5mins late! haha. And people who came were: kaiwei, anwaar, reca, samantha, kengwai, shixiong, junrui. qian qian came to say hi for a while. studied frm abt 12-4. then went to 900+ eat chicken rice then they came over to my house.

yeah they went off cus i had to have dinner. then they shld be coming over to the void deck in anytime soon :] haha. ciaos :)

2006-09-03T23:22:00.000+08:00

quick update on fri,sat & tday

fri- studied at bk with felicia, reca, samantha, shixiong, anwaar, junrui & kaiwei. shixiong says the most random stuffs and it got us cracking up almost everytime. aft tht we went to eat laksa (well, me and anwaar didnt eat). The uncle gave us 2 bowls of free laksa. hmm then went safra to slack a while till tht funny incident came about.

sat- went to khatib cc to study with anwaar, reca, kaiwei. samantha came late. had lots of fun studying + playing with kinder surprise toys. and laughing at jokes of the prev day. aft tht anwaar left and e 4 of us went to food court to eat. then they came over to my area to bitch/gossip/chat a little. Its amazing because it still feel like the old times. But i guess it's such a pity tht from my whole p5/p6 clique, the people whom i'm still quite close with are only kaiwei, felicia and junrui. and i got closer to reca and sam aft graduation. true friendships can last forever, it's just a matter whether you want to make it last or not, and whether u make the effort for such to happen.

And I don't believe in such line that defines the past and the present in the area of friendships. Theres a saying tht goes "make new friends but keep the old". What we are doing right now, i feel, is making use of our so called "past" to mould the future. Without our pasts, would we have been where we are right now? If you disagree with me, then are you going to ditch your friends after sec sch/junior colleges/poly/uni? Then won't you lead a miserable life in your working days? Because from what i heard, true friends are a rare find in the workforce.

sun- went for tuition in the morning, then went to j8 meet cmk, jue, clara, sarah. went to sin ming. aft tht walked around j8, and then explored the new bishan library as well as watched devil wear prada with jue and cmk. it was quite fun, esp prior to tht, we went ntuc to shop for food. haha damn aunty lah. overall i dont think its a movie thts worth my 9.50, quite a disappointment but nvrtheless, it's a good break from all the studying. Well, need to start my engine again tmr :)

sometimes it's how u set your priorities that shows what or who you value more.

2006-09-03T22:17:00.000+08:00

maturity. How would you define it?

When i was young, i always looked forward to being matured. That means being able to have the freedom to go out anytime I want, the ability to control my own life by myself.

When i think ive reached this age of having such abilities, the next question is, so what?

Once again, i pondered over the activities i had the last few days, and i realised i unknowingly neglected my family again. Yes, at this age of sixteen, ive gotten the freedom to go anywhere I like at almost anytime. But experiencing my parents' unconditional love for me, I felt bad instead.

I felt bad to ditch them for studies whenever they ask me out, but yet I can waste studying time with my friends outside.

Life is full of uncertainty. So what if i get 8 A1s? What's a life to live in, if happiness is dependent on certs and money? To me, the key to a happy life is the maintainance of kinships, friendships and relationships (in the future). Though I know they'll never read this and they'll never hear this from my mouth, but i just wanna say tht i love you mum and dad :)

2006-09-01T22:41:00.000+08:00

edited at 0056am(sat) }
as i was doing the 2005 PL amath prelims (both p1 and p2), i think i'm going to fail amaths. literally don't know how to do them. :(
(/edit)

;random quotes frm study grp with felicia/reca/samantha/junrui/anwaar/shixiong/kaiwei

shixiong: i dont have any exs lah
junrui: i have x and y coordinates la
shixiong: then now we can plot a graph
rest of us: ??! HAHAHA..

kaiwei(or was it junrui?): point taken.
shixiong: i left so many points for you to take
(rest of us laughed darn hard)

anwaar(to shixiong): what do you aim to become next time ah?
rest of us(guessing): physics teacher?
shixiong: i want to study forever
junrui: study what? sexual education?
(lol wth -_-)
then i dont know how it became something like...
one of the guys: you can study the acceleration and the velocity of doing it
another of the guys: force = mass x acceleration then the position determines the potential and kinetic energy
me/samantha/reca: (laughing) -_-

oh when we were leaving, some funny incident occured with this plump lady. SUPER classic. hahahahahah omg thinking of it makes me laugh. okok there was this lady who was at the payphone but her undergarment was revealed together with her tummy. its really revealed till like, can see about 5cm of each. kaiwei and i saw as we walked past but junrui didnt notice so kaiwei brought him back to see, but only to get caught by the lady due to their laughter. Then they chiong all the way out of the building, with the lady shouting behind. "i don't care you all! I'm going to whack you!" or something like tht. SUPER FUNNY CAN. haha omg. this kind of adventurous fun only happens with these bunch of friends :) Y

2006-08-31T20:04:00.000+08:00

oh no, the temptation t blog :( well, i just wanna keep this happy day in my memory bank :)

went back huamin today and lets see who went back..

reca

khairul

samantha

anwaar, aloysius

nadia, cynnthia

kaiwei

junrui, representing team singapore (vball)

and felicia (+ anwaar who loves the camera)

.. and shixiong whom i dont have a picture of

basically what we did was to talk to Mrs Siva at huamin, and a few other tchers. Lots of people from my batch went back. :) and then we went to our old classroom to view the rainbow that we left behind 4 yrs ago. :) next we went to the canteen and relived lots of memories. plus we ate. the uncle and aunties from the store still remember us and what we love to eat :)

walked to the cinema and we met up with kengwai(in uniform of the above picture), then we watched Monster House.. kind of a wrong choice cus it was boring. haha. then we kept laughing at every thing shixiong did. really damn funny. me sam reca and anwaar cannot stare at him for 2mins w/o laughing.
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i'm quite glad tht i made the choice to give gifts to my secondary schl tchers this yr. when i passed the present to mrs tay, the smile on her face made me happy. when i passed the present to mr lim, i can really sense tht he felt really happy as he shook my hand. Glad that my little craftwork can make people happy, although it did take up 2-3 nights of my studying time.

shall mug now or smth. x) gonna mug out tmr. :)

2006-08-30T20:54:00.000+08:00

concern is brought across through genuine actions.
and to be genuine doesn't require huge effort, but simply small actions tht make a difference.

unfortunately in this fast paced society, many doesn't really know how to achieve that.

thanks darsh for everything. Although you're in a different clique and etc, you are the 3rd best partner i ever had (after hazel and cherina). Thanks for always listening to me, be it to do with being stress or about other people (who are not in this schl). <3

thanks mary for tht very short but sweet note :)

after today's phototaking w the band, i'm inspired to work hard for ac. can't wait to go for the second tune in with melissa, liyun and gerdine :)

2006-08-29T23:52:00.000+08:00

nostalgia

6a1 2002
p5 clique (see i wasnt short in the past :/)

2006-08-29T21:27:00.000+08:00

ok ignore the previous post. I was feeling super bitter from how i felt left out during a particular instance of school, and it wasn't the first time. but i guess, i can't do anything about it anyway. Sometimes i try to barge my way in and i feel super extra later on :/ so instead of spending time thinking and being miserable of such stuff, i might as well change this to be an advantage to myself - more time to study :D hurray hurray.

Just managed to get all my teachers' day gifts (and im super proud cus its all handmade!). inclusive of the gift for my pri 6 ft. :) i'm quite elated tht lots of pri sch mates are going back this yr. after so long, the bond between the class is still so strong, so strong.

I became so happy because of my family :) i'm so glad that i have such great family although i do complain about them sometimes. haha. My mum was telling me that i push myself too hard for studies. But i was like, what? i didnt study for these few days okay. aww :)

whalao my prelims barely started but Jefri's prelim is ending tomorrow!

photo taking tmr, wld be fun i hope :)

2006-08-29T17:24:00.000+08:00

a bowl of honeystars made me happier

i'll always see cliques hanging around shopping malls whenever i go home. I'm jealous of them, i dont deny that fact.

Best friends, cliques.. they seemed so far away in the world i live in right now. I don't have a clique. people whom i usually tag along probably don't really notice my existence... somehow i can feel that. Yes, i'm kind of wallowing in self pity of some sort, but i don't care. Not been given the attention for the past year or so, I think i do deserve to vent my frustrations right here. I really hate the constant struggles i had (or am still having) to try to fit in. It's tiring to keep swallowing such stuff down and to tell myself to just ignore them. I thought this had ended but nonetheless, i'm proved wrong.

I miss those days where people always need me, as a friend, and not as a tool. Days where people ask me out instead of myself trying to make sure they appear. It's really very tiring trying to be happy daily, and sometimes i find myself asking, whats the point of friendships when i'm always taken for granted? Even the closest person in class doesn't know how i truly feel or who i truly am. Because she isn't that close to me till i'm ready to share my feelings with her. I think i grew desperate for true friendship. I get very elated when people ask me to join them, or when people share some secret with me, or when someone asks me out or gives me something. Which is quite sad.

While everyone's being sad about how tomorrow's the last official school day we have as secondary sch students, part of me actually feel glad. Finally, after 4 tormenting years, i'm getting out of this place. The other part of me's pretty sad because i know theres no other chances that the teachers in this school can teach me anymore.

I really hope i don't suffer some mental breakdown over the issue on friendship. Stress level's high enough to keep me grouchy, and i don't think this issue will do any good to it. Just today during chinese, thanks to lonesome as my counterpart, i wrote a really bitter letter on this very issue.

I also hope that next year will be a way better year. I hope i can start anew in a brand new environment, and to have friends that will truly know me.

In conclusion, i don't need your sympathy. I just need this area for me to air my feelings instead of keeping them within me till i burst.

2006-08-27T20:18:00.000+08:00

my gosh, its english prelims tomorrow and i feel so unprepared.

2006-08-26T19:02:00.000+08:00

ok CANDICE HO i'm posting this to compensate the deleted one on thurs okay

i just got off the phone with candice ho and the phonecall made me happy from some unhappy stuffs. (:

2006-08-26T00:42:00.000+08:00

edited;1302

looked thru the old pictures and I was overwhelmed with tears. I came to realise how much i have neglected my family due to friends, studies and band. There were so many pictures of myself when i was young, with my cousins, with my godma & family, with my family. It also reminded me of my late (real)godbro, the one who guided me through my homework whenever I needed help. Remembering his death made me cry even harder. It has been almost 4-5years.

I miss camwhoring with my brother too. We used to take many pictures of each other in the past, and of course, pictures together.

I'm more than ever determined to spend more time with my family after my O's now. Hopefully we'll go on an overseas trip as planned, and we'll take pictures like how we did in the past.

----

Came home around 10pm after study grp at tpy library. Going for another study grp tmr (or u may say, later). I'm kind of sick of studying but argh, persevere!

Targets for Prelims
English 2
Lit 2
Comb Humans 2
Maths 1
Amaths 1
Chem 1
Physics 2

i know some results seems unrealistic for myself, but well, for the sake of acjc!

2006-08-24T21:33:00.000+08:00

i thought the problem on friendship was working out fine. And indeed, it was just a one-sided thought. After so long, i'm back to square one.

[previous post transferred to livejournal :) go figure]

edit@933pm
anyways, i've lost the drive to study all thanks to my illness. I better find that drive soon or else i'd be dead for prelims. CT results for phys and emath were quite good. I guess i'll be receiving more tomorrow or so.

English prelims on Monday. Guess my weekends will be a mad rush of reading up compositions and doing comprehensions away (well, i hope) Think i'll prolly end up studying at Safra with Samantha and Reca again. Well at least it's more conducive than studying at home.

2006-08-22T21:56:00.000+08:00

just seen the doc. given 2 days MC but i guess i'll see if i need the 2nd day off. Shall sleep early and wake up early to study tomorrow.

I think my mum got the impression tht i study very hard (well.. maybe i am. But i'm only studying like in the afternoons aft schl and at night. I slacked from 6-730pm evryday :/). She told me not to study tomorrow. I went "what? but i didnt study today at all?" But well, she's concerned of my health instead of my results, which is good :D i'm really blessed with good parents who care for my well being instead of obsessed with my results, and they just want me to do my best, which means best. Not a definite all 'A's and etc. I think even if i get Cs and Ds after studying hard, they'll still be happy with my result.

Also, they always insist that i see a doc even if i don't see the need to. Like eg for this week i've seen the doc twice because they insisted, and spent a total of $66 on medical fee. Aw, i feel so loved :) Y

2006-08-22T15:10:00.000+08:00

here to vent my anger&frustration. i dont feel well again. maybe i'll see a doc tmr or smth. again.
chem prac's screwed, lost like at least 10marks. i need to work harder for chem now. sucks.

ah freak. i'm gonna sleep and wake up and study or smth. i feel sick.

2006-08-20T12:48:00.000+08:00

goodbye, gonna try to abstain from the internet for the next few days ;)

nostalgia

saturday: went safra to study with pri schl mates, namely Samantha, Reca, Qianqian, Aidil and Kaiwei from 1-6pm. well, us girls kept talking about pri sch times.. those crazy times like me being the mastermind of trying to matchmake 2 people in p3, and etc. Lots of memories came flooding. Miss those days :)

was looking thru my pictures, and i really miss the Genting trip :) not exactly glam or posh kind of holiday, but it was worth the memory. Y

she sat like Patience on a monument, smiling at grief.

2006-08-18T22:15:00.000+08:00

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oh ya, the hot topic this week was abt this ***** tht goes around snagging guys tht she doesnt really know. Pretty sad case i guess. -shrugs.
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hello world. I have been study pretty hard these few days tht i didnt come online on wed and thurs. i'm gonna cut way down on my online time. studying outside helps A LOT :D

well for the CTs. phys test went pretty ok.. but the prev time when i thought it was pretty ok i end up failing. emaths, amath quite okay. and tht marked the end of my CTs hurrah, but my prelims are getting nearer. in fact practicals are next week but just yesterday, i got back my latest practical test and i failed. how comforting when phys prac's on monday, hmm.

other than the CTs, well, i've been pretty sick this week. Was down with a blocked/runny nose + sore throat and slight cough since sunday. sort of gotten well on tues but i guess, the stress level made it come back again on wed night. however i havent got the chance to see a doc. tomorrow perhaps? haha.

Oh, i've also been on study groups which, amazingly, were productive :D went to the macs at bishan interchange with clara on wed to mug on amath, and we saw this totally drama scenario there. It was some major dispute between 2 generations. go figure.

And today, i've just returned from toapayoh library 1.5hrs ago. haha. We reached around 3-odd, ate at KFC (how sinful. i've been kind of indulging on fast food lately :/), then study. Woo, it was a massive study session. I helped the 2 of them with amath and they helped me in my chemistry. Managed to complete MCQ qns on Energy From Chemicals, Macromolecules and Kinetic Energy of particle or something like tht fr the TYS. Woo. i think completing MCQ in chem tys is possible! :D

ive done ALOT this week. I've redone p1 of mid yr paper, did 2 other amath papers (cedar & peicai), rgs emath p2, chem tys, completed the chaps in pass w distinction amath book on kinematics and vectors. cool shit man, i shall do more tmr. HAHA.

(oh my gosh i sound like a nerd. noooooooo. i swear im gonna regain my fun life once o's end :/)

2006-08-14T20:58:00.000+08:00

done after lunch.. =d

gave schl a miss today. a lil due to my nose, a lil due to the upcoming cts.

oh glorious sleep! haha.

well, physics is such a drag tht i got sick of it after an hr. then amath-ed all the way. somehow maths/amath seems more appealing than dc motors, thermistor and alpha particles.. hmm. even chem seems more attractive. :D

yeah so ive only managed t complete section B of one tiny unit in tys for physics. redid my amath mids p1, realising tht i could have done so much better. give you detailed information on how slack i was:

9am: woke up, brkfast
10-11am: computer
11am-1: physics for an hr, amath for another.
1-1.15: lunch
1.15-2.15: computer
2.15-445: amath
445-5: bathed
5-5.30: facial mask (LOL)
530-615: read strybook
615-645: dinner
645-7: read strybook
7-8: HAHA FINAL EPISODE OF SHOW OK!
8-9: read finish the storybook!
9pm: oh shit i havent finish studying physics. LOL

timecheck: 1 week till prelim practicals, 2 weeks to eng prelim exam, 1 mth to rest of my prelims. my oh my.

2006-08-13T00:48:00.000+08:00

met jue&cmk at tpy library. we studied at macs for a while and headed for esplanade.

the mrt was super crowded. sheares bridge was also super crowded.

and the squeezing experience kind of showed me an ugly side of S'poreans. I think i couldnt even count with just my 2 hands the number of times people said the f word or vulgar stuff in hokkien language. the irony is, you choose to come to join in the crowd and you come here to swear. ha.

oh and there was this weird lady who put her expensive bag on the floor or smth. then kept scolding ppl when they walked pass and step on her bag. People around me were like "cant she take it up since it's 'expensive'". It makes sense to me to pick it up instead of making noise too.

but anyhows, the fireworks' awesome :)

geez, i gotta sleep. i have tuition later and ive yet to complete the relative velocity hw ):

2006-08-12T14:56:00.000+08:00

i hate relative velocity ):

2006-08-11T22:28:00.000+08:00

hello bloggy. I'm happy i made the effort to work hard for Chinese. :) i did well and the efforts paid off. I have one lesser sub to think about for my L1R5, hurray :)

oh i cant believe i said stupid stuff during english olvl oral. "When is the time tht you felt least confident" my smart alec mouth blabbered "erm, like now?" haha omg. and i couldnt identify the two ACTUAL actors on the picture. i actually said they are perhaps sports stars. well, its actually ok but my examiner asked me aft all the picture discussion, "do you want to try naming the two stars?" thank goodness i said "sorry i really dont know". imagine if i anyhow name some ah kow ah meng, i'm gonna be their laughingstock yea? i hope i did well for eng oral. oh man, olvl is torture. prelims is torture. being sec4 is a huge torture!

2006-08-10T19:20:00.000+08:00

things to do
- master relative velocity
- chem study on ~~organic~~/~~electrolysis (inclusive of tys)~~
- phys from chap 20-end (and do tys)
- ~~read finish 12th night~~
- finish at least ~~1 paper of amath~~ and ~~emath~~(left 5 more qns!)

ytd; amath in the noon and dine out with family(pizza hut again. woosh.). almost got myself a new phone but oh wells, one more mth till my contract ends. which means i'll prolly get my phone nxt mth in the midst of my prelims. (dramatic irony). came home and mugged chem till 2am. oh i slept a total of 14 hrs the prev night. i guess there goes to show how tired i was. and my mum bought the oto thingy thts smth like uzap. haha omg. and theres this massager tht goes with it. Cool shit. hurhur.

tday; woke up ard 10am. lunched out with bro. mugged chem, read a lil lit and did some math. i think math turns me on. hahah. shall finish studying my lit later. :) oh, tmr's eng oral. i hope i dont crap too much.

oh, if you still havent heard Jack's Mannequin (his 'Dark Blue' is finally famous on 98.7fm now, after like almost a yr of album release) and Snow Patrol, i strongly urge you to listen to them! it's been like, at least 4+ months since i started listening to Jack's Mannequin and i still think Andrew McMahon is awesome :D His every song is stuck on my head, and i don't seem to get sick of it :)

Jack's Mannequin - Meet Me At My Window (Superman OST)
Meet me at my window
At my window
I could use a hero right now
You could use someone to save
Someone like me
Someone who's not brave
Someone who's not free
Meet me at my window

With the darkness, cometing down
I could use your, saving now
Meet me at my window
Meet me at my window
I will wait for you there
I will talk to you, no
When there's no one, around

Come on, you could change me
You could steal me
You could turn all the lights on
And show me the real me
Then maybe, if I'm lucky
You'll offer me protection
You could even heal me
Just meet me at my window

With the darkness, cometing down
I could use your, saving now
Meet me at my window
Meet me at my window
I will wait for you there
I will talk to you, no
When there's no one, around

So meet me at my
Meet me at my window
At my window
Meet me at my window
My window, right now

With the darkness, cometing down
I could use your, saving now
Meet me at my window
Meet me at my window
I will wait for you there
I will talk to you, no
When there's no one, no one around
When there's no one, no one around
When there's no one, no one
When there's no one, around

fck.

2006-08-08T20:13:00.000+08:00

im kinda pms-y now. and no, its not the time of the mth.

i attempted nanhua amath paper2. out of 6 qns i only managed to do 1. the other 5 qns are either different frm the ans key (minority) or dunno how to do (majority). im so screwed.

my state of mind is too complex for even myself to comprehend.

2006-08-08T17:56:00.000+08:00

click the image below for bigger image :)

ive decided tht i shall be allowed to use the comp for 15-30mins each day only, but no MSN-ing unless weekends.

i heard tht chi o's results are coming out this friday. please pray for me tht i'd get an A1 :(

well todays a great day. eve's macework rocked :), and no one frm band fall out from the squad consisting of sec1s-3s. wonderful! pizza hut-ed with the following ppl: victoria, yuxuan, sokyi, sarah teo, sarah lee, eve, maryanne, priscilla, lydia, angeline, celeste and liyun. yum :) aft tht went to town with eve and sarahlee. my trip to town aft like so long and busy with studying. i bought myself Blue October's CD. its good but not as awesome as the snow patrol cd tho :)

things to do the coming week (with the so many holidays..)
- master relative velocity
- chem study on organic/electrolysis (inclusive of tys)
- phys from chap 20-end (and do tys)
- ~~read finish 12th night~~
- finish at least 1 paper of ~~amath~~(left with p2!) and emath

Shall end of this entry with a few lines from Blue October's album.. then i'll work on my studying :)

I used to be the one who won before.
I used to smile but dont no more.
I'm living just to watch it all go by.

2006-08-06T13:39:00.000+08:00

p/s: if you havent read the prev entry on SOP, read tht instead of my groaning about studying.

things to do for THIS week:
- read finish 12th night
- ~~finish ss chap 5 before wed~~
- ~~do acsb amath midyr paper 2006~~
- tuition hw on relative velocity
- chem study on organic/electrolysis
- phys from chap 20-end
- geog study manufacturing/~~pollution for test~~
- stop coming online you super duper ultra mega uber addicted loser

oh freak. I havent done much this week. i really need to bid goodbye to the cyber world. Damn.

and i really need help in organic chem. I know what ms ferng's talking in class, i just cant identify which drawing is referring to whichever compound, or how to write it. i dont want organic to suck the distinction for chem away from me :(

things to do the coming week (with the so many holidays..)
- master relative velocity
- chem study on organic/electrolysis (inclusive of tys)
- phys from chap 20-end (and do tys)
- read finish 12th night
- finish at least 1 paper of amath and emath

stupid tree tht blocked my sunset !@#$%

Symphony of Praise

2006-08-06T00:40:00.000+08:00

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i dont know what you mean. i dont know what youre thinking. But i dont wanna play guessing games. Just tell me straight what youre thinking about and stop twisting and turning.
[/edit]

So this is it. The real end of my pl band life.

Well, playing in the main band now is kind of weird, with the addition of the sec1s in the main band, the band seems.. different. But what's heartwarming is that you see the sec1s bonding with the rest of the band, and the sec3s have improved way a lot. Examples are like victoria, shufen and sokyi. They played fantastic tonight as soloists and i'm so proud of them :)

This concert gave me the opportunity to bond with my fellow sec1 juniors. It gave me a chance to chat and talk with them, mingle around and to know the "true" side of theirs just within 2 practices, 1 rehearsal and 1 actual concert day(yeah, no more super-guai-and-quiet-sec1s) If given another chance, I'd still play for the symphony of praise :)

What i feel now about the band and the performance tonight, cannot be simply put into words or statement, it's indescribable.

If any of my juniors happen to chance upon this, i hope you'd read this line: tonight, the band made me more than ever confident that it'll be a gold for SYF next yr :)

hurs.

2006-08-03T17:58:00.000+08:00

ss is screwed. urgh.
oh i forgot to mentioned tht i revised on the phone with hazel and audrey on the phone. missed those clique times in lower sec :) oh wells, since aud's alr been accepted in acjc, i shall work hard t make it there too :) ahha.

chatted with darsh partner over physics lesson. haha. its nice to talk to her :D hurhurhur :)

1 more mth man. i seriously need to get my ass off the chair in front of my comp and start studyingggg. i shant come online :(:(

things to do for THIS week:
- read finish 12th night
- ~~finish ss chap 5 before wed~~
- ~~do acsb amath midyr paper 2006~~(paper two left!)
- tuition hw on relative velocity
- chem study on organic/electrolysis
- phys from chap 20-end
- geog study manufacturing/pollution for test
- stop coming online you super duper ultra mega uber addicted loser

tiredness

2006-08-03T06:04:00.000+08:00

hello blog. I'm dying from being tired. I have muscle cramps all over from carrying two euphoniums at Sg Conf Hall. I want to sleep. Theres SS test today, physics quiz today, geog test tmr, and 11aug marks the CTs. and THE prelims are coming. I'm gonna die with so much not covered. Noooooo~

Sorry, I cant think straight. I'm really super duper ultra mega uber tired. :(

things to do.

2006-07-30T22:19:00.000+08:00

supposedly things to do for last week:
- ~~phys tys on radiation~~
- ~~nanyang girls amath papers~~
- ~~xinmin emath papers~~
- ~~chem workbook~~& start on tys
- ~~read 12th night~~(2 Acts to go!)
- ~~study ss - chapter 5 for test~~(6 more pages!)
- ~~study geog - pollution for test~~
- read thru 1/2 of physics textbook
- read up on macromolecules

things to do for THIS week:
- read 12th night
- finish ss chap 5 before wed
- do acsb amath midyr paper 2006
- chem study on chap 1,2,3
- phys from chap 20-end
- geog study manufacturing
- stop coming online you addicted loser

sometimes.

2006-07-29T23:59:00.000+08:00

i'm irritated at geog cus theres so much to write for notes
i'm irritated at emath cus i cant do some of the qns
and most importantly i'm irritated at an irritating moron.

2006-07-29T21:10:00.000+08:00

things to do for ~~the week~~sunday:
- ~~phys tys on radiation~~(section B remaining)
- ~~nanyang girls amath papers~~
- ~~xinmin emath papers~~(paper2 remaining)
- ~~chem workbook~~& start on tys
- ~~read 12th night~~(2 Acts to go!)
- study ss - chapter 5 for test
- ~~study geog - pollution for test~~(a bit more!)
- read thru 1/2 of physics textbook
- read up on macromolecules

oh geez, lots of stuff to study for tmr! well anws, crediting darsh for taking the hot work photo in prev entry :)

quick update on my week:
monday- studied
tue- band-ed, studied
wed- tchers day audition, studied a lil
thurs- went j8 with darsh, studied very little
fri- sop rehearsal, read thru 12th night
today- tuition, bought Snow Patrol's latest album :D :D Which is totally awesome!

i better go study more later :)

Get up, get out, get away from these liars
Cos they don't get your soul or your fire
Take my hand, knot your fingers through mine
And we'll walk from this dark room for the last time
(Snow Patrol - Open Your Eyes)

2006-07-27T18:25:00.000+08:00

need to save money for:
1. prom stuff(yes, i'm paying for myself), est $500++?
2. music theory registration, est < $100
3. money to spend for hols (perhaps going overseas), est > $100
4. The Academy Is... album, Almost Here. est $20
5. professional camera, est $1.5k (not of importance, but am saving for it)
Total: around $2220 (cool number), $720 excluding camera cost

oh shit. looking at the amount i need to save, i'll probably need to starve. 17 weeks to prom. which means.. ohgoshineedtosavelike$42aweektoachievetheamountWTH!

ok i need a rich boy friend. LOL kidding.

things to do for the week:
- ~~phys tys on radiation~~(section B remaining)
- ~~nanyang girls amath papers~~(3 more qns)
- ~~xinmin emath papers~~(paper2 remaining)
- ~~chem workbook~~& start on tys
- read 12th night
- study ss - chapter 5 for test
- study geog - pollution for test
- read thru 1/2 of physics textbook
- read up on macromolecules

oh, just for laughs -

taken at Bishan Mrt Station. :)

Hey, give me space so I can breathe
Give me space so I can sleep
Give me space so you can drown in this with me
Hey, give me space but I can't breathe
Give me space but I can't sleep
Give me just one inch I swear that's all I'll need

2006-07-26T21:59:00.000+08:00

when the light of life sometimes cease to shine

Snow Patrol - Whatevers Left

It's a feeling I've had many times before
I can't hold the fort so don't give me more
I struggle and sweat when I'm wide awake
When I know I'm fine, I'm not used to fine

It's the same thing again
But it could become a problem if
We don't deal with it now
And you blast off in another rant
I've not opened my mouth
Can you read my mind so easily
As the madness sets in
You must know that I'll follow you

A sudden movement and a broken limb
The patches are there to show where I'm hit
My fault is it now well that's news to me
Curled and joyless we try once again

2006-07-26T19:31:00.000+08:00

not as if anyone wld read, but i'd update anyway.

sch's still the same, with free chi periods converted to respective subjects each day. band has made me idle less, and study more (well, kind of). had integration quiz today, hope i'd do well or smth. yeah, thts about it for my life these 3 days (pathetic, isnt it?).

Happiness
What would you define happiness as? To get your new MP3 player? To get your desired handphone?

Personally, i feel that happiness comes when you have the right mindset. Without the right mindset, even if life is in favour for you, people will still not be happy. Negativity is the result of the inability to find satisfaction in our life. How do we find satisfaction then? Simply with the right mindset! (Which is rather tough with the media influences, such as songs that go "I'm so sad", "I'm gonna die without him" and shows that revolves around suicidal madcase people) Being positive is the key to being contented with life. Supposedly you get back your results and you failed, tell yourself "its okay, failures strengthens me and gives me the determination for the quest for success" But yes, you do have to play a part to make success happen. Don't expect when there's no input. Neither we should set high expectations of ourselves. Be contented. Aim for more but with some practicality.

Of course it is kind of ironic here, learning to be contented while keeping up with the pace of the society to self-improve and to compete with the rest of the world in order to survive. But I guess one must learn to strike a balance between seeking for more and to be self-satisfied.

Making people happy around me makes me happy. It gives me a sense of accomplishment when I know that my efforts are appreciated, or to know that I have made someone's day. Of course, making people happy needs a happy person and I don't deny that being happy is not exactly my forte(Well, if you think i'm always cheerful, then i guess you havent seen the deeper side of me). I'm still on the quest for the secret to happiness, and it's tough, definitely, but i long for the day that I can truly declare that I'm happy and nothing else can sway my happiness. :D

okay i really dont know what the heck I'm typing about anymore. I think I'm going to doze off soon or something, but i NEED to stay awake to study + do homework.

2006-07-23T22:12:00.000+08:00

ok i shall attempt not to come online every other day again. MIA ;D

2006-07-23T20:38:00.000+08:00

things to do for the week
- tys on radiation
- nanyang girls amath papers
- xinmin emath papers
- chem workbook& start on tys
- read 12th night

i almost finished radiation chapters on tys. just left with 1 more section to go but.. ive decided too mcuh studying of radiation's bad for the health. haha. yeah, shall work on amath or chem later.

i think i need a study grp on saturdays. or else i'd keep walking ard my house or using the comp to do useless stuff. anyone yeah? i'll probably need somewhere thts not too far or doesnt need too much travelling.

i think i'm high, super witty and funny today. hahaha.

me: ...asshole lah.
jef: why?
me: cause shit comes out of you
jef: then you don't shit meh?
me: constipation HAHA

jef: no wonder you're so full of shit
--

Justin. says:
TSK
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2006-07-22T23:47:00.000+08:00

ok i've decided to delete two prev posts cause i thought they were nonsensical.

or maybe it's because i am nonsensical.

2006-07-19T22:02:00.000+08:00

dreams are only meant for sleeping.

2006-07-18T19:04:00.000+08:00

my condolences to those who suffered the tsunami (which took place on monday) in indonesia.

I'm more than ever thankful that Singapore is such a safe place, although sometimes i do complain about the insufficent places of interests and shopping centres for us to go to.

I am even thankful that i'm given an opportunity to pursue secondary school education right now (yes i'm insane), so perhaps i ought to go do my chemistry revision already. (what a spoiler)

on the brighter note, i have one less subject, which is chinese, to think about. chi o's marked its end yesterday with the listening compre. All i can do now is hope that the results next month will bring me what i want. I really hope i don't have the need to retake. gahhh.

oh man. i've become such a freak that i realised almost all of my entries talked about studies and school. i need to get a life. i've been so exhausted everyday from schl that i fall asleep on the table and on the sofa, and i sleep early every night. oh gosh.

maybe the person that i really need to comprehend first is myself.

2006-07-16T16:48:00.000+08:00

*tells self* internet once every two days. only to study, no guitar-ing time or tv time blahblahblah.

ok let's hope i obey :/ time's more precious now since i'm going back to band pracs once again, but i didnt regret my choice :)

somehow i wish you were a lot easier to comprehend.

2006-07-16T14:49:00.000+08:00

"when even the finest things are leaving you hollow" - better than ezra

the number of people who agreed at first and then backed out on me with regards to 5th aug concert can be counted with more than 1 hand. that's how pathetic and disappointed i am. why bother agreeing in the first place before confirming tht you can play? it could have lessen the amount of admin work and smses sent.
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a topic during some msn conversation with a friend last night kind of struck me.
The purpose of friendship is to make use of one another?
Pretty sad, but i guess thats the real world.
Yeah you may argue there's bonds/connection between friends (like how i argued) but think again, isn't it for mutual benefits?

i realise the older people get, the more complex the world seems. When I was young i always thought that friends are forever and friends are purely just.. friends. It seem so natural to be nice to one another without a motive, and it's impossible not to have close/good/best friends.

But as I grow older, i realise there's no such thing as "forever", sometimes you have to be nice to some people for your own gain, and it's possible to not have close/good/best friends, because everyone's putting up a superficial front that you dont know who's true and who's not.

okay. enough of all tht not-so-happy stuff.
photos of the day:

2006-07-14T21:15:00.000+08:00

lesson of the day: never ever try sharing 10scoops worth of icecream with 4 friends at cafe cartel although the menu states "for 4 persons", because i think they meant "for 4 huge appetite males".

school makes me so tired. im considering if i should even pick up my physics tb to read thru, especially since i'm going out with mum tomorrow. but then again, how much can i absorb? haha. oh, listening exam on monday and it'll mark the end of chi o's. hurray :) i hope i'd do well :)

2006-07-13T17:21:00.000+08:00

If you do read my blog, please leave a tag yeah? Even if it's a simple hello. It's quite freaky know people that you least expect to read your blog. Ok.. not as if i dont go blog hopping anonymously but still, i'd love nice comments/greetings from people :)

well.. i think ah lians who sits on the floor of the mrt, blast music on their handphone and open their mouth to speak nothing but vulgarities disgrace Singapore. Quite disgusted to witness such a sight on my way home today. What have Singaporeans become?

anyway been studying a little more than usual recently (and falling asleep on my table most of the time), hopefully efforts will pay it off.

other schl midyr/prelims papers wanted! (trade or something?) English, Maths, Amaths, Pure Physics, Pure Chem, Elec Geog, Pure Lit (12th Night/Grass is Singing), SS papers are welcomed.. :D

gotta go out to photocopy other schl papers. :] bye!

the sky outside my home

2006-07-10T15:13:00.000+08:00

(edit at 2109h) cut down of internet time failed for today. does anyone have tips on how to study? i cant even seem to finish 1 chap of geog and 1 chap of ss today. urgh.
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oh. it's 3rd week of term alr. time to crash the books hard. cutting down internet time. bye. (sigh)

2006-07-09T16:58:00.000+08:00

blogger photo upload died on me. used photobucket so, please be patient. click for larger image.

ok i photoshopped it :(

taken by justin on my compact camera

i didnt photoshop :]

the guy in front is some random person lah. haha. but kinda cool.
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just ordinary

i think my family is ordinary.

No, not that i want them to be extraordinaire or something. but to think of it seriously, none of my family members is exceptionally talented in any area. Not in music, not in math, not in sciences, not in visual arts, not super duper smart, no special skills, etc. Certain families i know have talents in their genes. Like being super good at the arts, have professional skills in areas such as singing and photography, or just being super smart.

then again, perhaps being ordinary helps you to be an all rounder. Well at least, being able to acquire some skills here and there easily. Some people, being too good at certain aspects, tend to lose out at other aspects. I guess thats one good thing about being ordinary. An ordinary person will not be too tilted towards one edge and lose the other edge. If you get what i mean.

Having ordinary parents has made me independent somehow. Because my parents aren't fantastic in math, i guess i learnt to seek help on my own.

And having ordinary parents helps cause they don't expect you to be what they are. They just want you to be the best that you can, and they'll be supportive for whatever route you choose to take. They don't force you to go to junior colleges if it's against your own will, or force you to learn piano because they're musically inclined.

I don't know why i'm talking about all these. The word "ordinary" just came across my head today, and such thoughts flourished from that single word. Thought i may record them here, to remind myself that being ordinary is blissful. So what if i don't get 6pts for L1R5? So what if i dont know music as well as the others? So what if i take lousy photographs? So what if i can't write profound english essays? At least I can tell the others that I have the ability to write in both english and chinese and speak in these languages fluently, i can take a rather decent photo, do average for my grades, understand some music. That's enough.

Troubled Waters?
i've noticed some turbulence between my parents these few days. i hope it's just a temporal thing. Today they seemed okay though, thank goodness.

Random Fact
okay, i think i bore-d you out with my philosophy just now. shall entertain you with one random fact about myself. ha ha ha.
okay, my nose waters whenever i eat spicy stuff. so yeah. sniff sniff. haha.
and also i love lilies :D my day totally brightened when i saw them at some flower shop today. (:

shall do some homework and then some geog revision before i knock myself to bed. yes it's early but it's for the sake of catching world cup at 2am and making it awake for school tomorrow. aw, why can't my schl learn from RI to set tomorrow a schl holiday huh?

2006-07-09T00:12:00.000+08:00

im tired. saw sir at nj's concert. spoke to him a while.

oh. in the end i didnt study, instead i watched high schl musical on youtube. teehee. sunday then study lahhhh. :)

yes my blog is boring. i dont know what to type. please enlighten me.
crap, i think olvls' turning me into a boring freako. and my dad took away my card reader !@#$% so i cant upload pictures from the esplanade.

okays :/ . shall leave you with a picture tht i took last week to enjoy.

i thought this was quite cool; taken outside taka

2006-07-08T11:15:00.000+08:00

woo. i got back my geog marks ytd, 43/50. it was far better than expectation. in fact it was so good tht it pulled my comb humans marks to a B3 :) hard work paid off!

ok enough of results-
ytd went to st pats for MOE Excel fest. quite fun but tiring. a few weird incidents. haha. but overall it was interesting. took lotsa pics there :) aft tht i treated jue and cheryl to dinner because i felt guilty for always not going their guzheng perf. :]

been noticing the clouds in the sky these few days. pretty cool, wished i had my cam with me evrytime i looked up. hurhur.

okay i think i need a change in the blog layout. kinda bored of it. (geez, changing layouts when ure supposed t study.) shall do my hw aft the change of layout :)

2006-07-06T22:07:00.000+08:00

smth to ponder on...

life, time & love
simple words yet can mean differently to everyone.

i think human are always contradicting themselves. i'm a good example. when life gets boring, i long for busy life. when life gets busy, i long for the boring days.

humans, they cant seem to ever get satisfied.

hmmm. once again, im behind my study schedule. i didnt touch chem although it's stated on my daily study schedule. two subjects per day, my foot. sheree you're such a huge slacker. urgh.

2006-07-06T14:59:00.000+08:00

aye. results. falls short of my expectations. i didnt know i'd fail ss. i thought i'll like use ss to salvage my geog marks (i havent got back geog, but i never do well anyway). now tht i failed, i'll not even think abt it man. i'm not even gonna count my comb humans :/

results so far {for mids}.
maths - 1
amaths - 2
chem - 2
cl - 3
eng - 3
phys - 3
lit - 3
comb humans - unknown. {ss 23/50, geog- unknown}

L1r5 - 14
L1b4 - 11

i'm still so far from my goal.. i need to improve one grade for all my subs. sigh. tht means way much studying for prelims.

although yes, you may say i did quite well and will do better than prelims, but hello, what makes you think tht the prelims won't kill me? and if 14 is good, realise tht smart people from schls like mgs, cedar, dunman, etc are doing the same olvl paper. which means tht perhaps more 6 pointers. which means schls will be tougher to get into. ok i can feel the pressure now. i'll try to study like mad for prelims and o's man. :S

no way i'm gonna let the past (psle) repeat once again.. i'm not gonna suffer for another 2 years..

2006-07-06T05:41:00.000+08:00

Colours of blue white red!
woke up at 4am to watch the match..
France won! but too bad i didnt have the opportunity to watch tht winning goal.

ironically, i woke up early to face my doomsday.
getting back my results today hurhur. wish me luck :/

2006-07-04T22:25:00.000+08:00

i just watched she's the man on youtube. it's really an awesome movie. nice indulging on such a movie aft so long. hurhur

oh man, theres schl tmr. i havent packed my bag. guess i'll do tht tmr. gotta sleep :)

equation of the day: studying physics + intense heat from the sun = headache.

wth why cant they make soccer at 9pm instead of 3am :/

2006-07-04T13:40:00.000+08:00

4A1-ers!
if you havent got the new timetable, heres it(click to enlarge):

kind of a crap timetable --" cause even if lessons end at 1.10pm, we're not allowed t go home till 1.45pm. aye. haha. and my free period's on tues and thurs. :D

alrighty, for today ive jogged ard 1.6km + walk 800m, and i've just done an amaths paper from ngee ann sec. it killed my brain cells. dying now man. haha. i love amaths but sometimes it really kills me with the kind of NUMBERS they like to give. like, super out of the way kind. haha. okays, shall study 2-4chaps of physics later :] plus do english hw. so unlucky, tomorrow's double period eng :/

monday-
met maryanne to go for closing ceremony.
cmk & i

then i went to meet the ncos for lunch. :] cafe cartel. haha. then yeah, talked and then went home ard 6pm.
i realised i get tired very easily nowadays and kind of sick of going out -_- it must be due to too much studying at home during exam weeks ;(

cool view outside taka

from top left clockwise: edward(gmss dm), randolph(nass dm), jefri (acsb bm), aloysius (ftpss bm), me, debbie (phs bm), huilin (hkss bm), lydia (hkss dm), chengfu (mjrss dm), anchun (? i dont know his post)

note to self: never ever glue anything with elephant glue AGAIN (unless you want the skin to tear again)

2006-07-02T22:24:00.000+08:00

sometimes i dont feel like blogging. my tagboard seems so pathetic ;( it shows me how people are disinterested to read anyway. aye. and everyone seems to be ignoring me on msn now --"

but oh, im supposed to be studying :( doing anglican math paper now.

Death Cab For Cutie - Marching Bands Of Manhattan

If I could open my arms
And span the length of the isle of Manhattan,
I'd bring it to where you are
Making a lake of the East River and Hudson
If I could open my mouth
Wide enough for a marching band to march out
They would make your name sing
And bend through alleys and bounce off all the buildings.

I wish we could open our eyes
To see in all directions at the same time
Oh what a beautiful view
If you were never aware of what was around you
And it is true what you said
That I live like a hermit in my own head
But when the sun shines again
I'll pull the curtains and blinds to let the light in.

Sorrow drips into your heart through a pinhole
Just like a faucet that leaks and there is comfort in the sound
But while you debate half empty or half full
It slowly rises, your love is gonna drown [4x]

Your love is gonna drown [4x]
Your love is gonna...

2006-07-02T00:49:00.000+08:00

okays. let me update you. it may be image heavy :/ click on them for bigger view.

thurs-
i didnt go for the opening ceremony. oral was ok i guess. hope i can do well.

fri-
jogged in the morning on my own. then went shopping.
note to self: never shop with rich people cause they make you feel inferior -_-
okay. shopped with clara, sarah, darsh at marina sq.
bought myself a pair of shorts which is, kind of expensive :/
clara&sarah left ard 3pm.
darsh and i went to pizza hut for lunch, and went down to bugis.
there i bought socks, earrings and necklace
then homed cause i was freakin wornt out.

sat-
music marathon-ed. ok lah.
then went home to change and rushed back to schl.
its super hot and crowded at the stadium. hurhur.
march in/GOH shooting, quite cool! haha. ok, at least my photos are cool ;D

GOH - prime minister himself!

the bands were, super cool. whoo.
didnt know huiping was bowen's dm! gosh. no wonder look so familiar! she's so hot man!

tk got best band. deyi best major. :] pics coming right up.

TKSS BAND!
so cute hur. (still tkss band)
Deyi band!
Bowen band!
after results

oh, the sky was so beautiful!

melissa, me, eve
yepp. after getting back t schl, eve and i went to chomp chomp with ms seah and ms liang. ms liang treated us sugar cane juice :] and paid for our food first cus we were 'fraid tht we dont have enough to cab. reached home ard 1130pm :]

im so looking forward to the nxt syfs (for indoor in 07, outdoor in 08)!

2006-06-29T19:32:00.000+08:00

shit.

after about 2 months from not exercising plus destressing thru indulgence in snacks, i think i've put on weight and i havent grew any taller.

and oh, chi o's oral over :)

shall do some math paper now to warm up my studying mode. hurhur

2006-06-28T19:07:00.000+08:00

my head hurts. i think 3 sleepless nights killed me. i better get well by tmr ):
though mids is over, but its the chinese olvls oral tmr ):

on the brighter side, there's no schl for me on fri, mon, tues. why? sch's having music marathon event.. :)

on the even brighter side, mrs chew said tht sec4s shld be able to play in aug5th schl's concert in singapore conf hall (: oh yay, playing with pl band once again (:

just a brief update on what happened;
lit, geog, chem papers were okay lah. i think im gonna die for physics. i was like 'anyhow tikam lah' when i was doing lah. hahaha.

oh i lost my geog book. i placed it on my classroom table and it disappeared by the end of the day. wth. i went to two populars and they dont have the textbook .... ): i better get it asap so tht i can copy down all the notes. hurhur. :/

okay.. hopefully i can study finish my chi oral stuff asap and then plonk on my bed to my lala land.

--

i haf been tagged....
''Rules: Do the following without complains.
Choose five people to do this after you have completed yours.
Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she has been tagged...
And start your post by 'i have been tagged'
then do this:

Your 10 favourites
Favourite Colours: green, blue, silver, orange
Favourite Food: duck rice? heh heh. korean food too.
Favourite Songs: anything non techno.
Favourite Movies: quite a lot.
Favourite Sports: cycling
Favourite Day of the Week: sat
Favourite Ice Cream Flavour: cookies & cream
Favourite Countries: sg of course.
Favourite Things: so many.

Your 9 currents
Current Mood: tired, a lil sick..
Current Clothes: pink tee, shorts...
Current Desktop: oh. its the default one. havent changed since my comp crashed
Current Toe Nail colour: uncoloured
Current Time: 1918
Current Annoyance: the headache.
Current Thoughts: CHI ORAL TMR ;(
Current Song: dark blue by jack's mannequin
Current "Chatter": whats chatter. haha.

Our 8 Firsts
First Best Friend: chew loo in k1 :]
First Crush: haha. dont tell you
First Movie: how can i rmb.
First Piercing: 6 yrs old.
First Lie: dont know.
First Music: hur. nursery rhymes?
First Car: forgot
First Cry: on my birth day.?

Your 7 lasts
Last Cigarette: no thanks
Last Drink: water
Last Car Ride: to schl
Last Crush: hurhur. for me t know for u t find out
Last Movie seen: RV
Last Phone Call: mum
Last CD Played: cd... none. mp3 can? haha.

Your 6 Have you evers
Have you ever date one of your bestfriend: hurhur. define date
Have you ever broken the laws: yeah
Have you ever been arrested: no.
Have you ever been on TV: yeah. lol. national day community drumming --"
Have you ever kiss some one that u dont know: no?

5 things that you are wearing: specs, tshirt, shorts, watch, earrigns
4 things you done today: write, speak, breathe, walk
3 things you hear right now: tv in the living rm, music, typing sound
2 things you can't live without: music, sleep
Things you do when u are bored: sleep, play guitar, online chat, read? haha.

5 peeps to do this quiz:
1. maryanne
2. brenda
3. jolene khoo
4. darshini
5. clara lam

2006-06-25T21:42:00.000+08:00

ON HIATUS

good bye virtual world, im not turning on my comp anymore till MYexams end. See you on 28th.

meanwhile im contactable thru smses. i may need some encouragement to deter fr the online world.

I could give you one good reason.
You could be my winning season.
All the things we could have been, just fell away
-Better than Ezra ; Burned.

remember, piracy is a crime! :/

i cant believe i actually studied 6 hrs ytd, and almost 5hrs today for lit! gosh :/

2006-06-23T14:24:00.000+08:00

ok last post before the exams ends. -_-"

Congrats to ac band for being the top band for 17th aust international music fest!
haha, gotten the news from justin fr aust. woah, so cool hur, top band! but they deserved it definitely :]

ok, so far im half completed with geog. i swear i wont take geog and phys after my o's. :/

the band ver of hunchback of notre dame is like ringing in my head. haha. perhaps cause i listened to it for like, 4-5times frm k's bbq ytd.

goodbye... till the 28th where my exams end! (i hope once again)

some eye candies:

sec4 farewell + handover {19june}

video done by retarded juniors of mine. =d

bro's bday {21june}

bbq {22june}

view from karin's roof apartment

(brenda trying to kill the flame. LOL)

2006-06-21T21:27:00.000+08:00

{edit}
okay, so im done with chemistry and physics, but how well do i know these subjects is another thing. anws, what's left is just geog and lit. oh, would any one love to enlighten me, how the heck do we do map reading? i dont wanna fail for tht section again.

my head and eyes hurt real bad from studying :/
i think they shld like, ban studying or smth.

and oh, im so in love with the band version of The Hunchback of Norte Dame (: i can listen to the mp3 like, 3-5times per night or smth. lol.

okays, wont update till exams over! (i hope)
{/edit}

oh no, I DONT KNOW AC GENERATOR for physics! :( im so gonna fail physics :/ esp when the exams' on the same day with GEOG! two killer subs! help!

2006-06-21T19:54:00.000+08:00

my bro's bday.

smth negative, u dont have to comment on my entry.

i was feeling so emo while i was outside. i feel so .. imperfect. im short, im fat, i have ugly&messy hair, i dont have flawless face.. urgh (go ahead, mock me). i dont have true friends (maybe a few rather close ones, but not tht close for me to share my secrets), i dont talk tht much with my family... i feel rather isolated in the world. hurhur.
once again, i wish i can restart my life. :/

omg i hate being depressed x_x

2006-06-20T21:27:00.000+08:00

oh gosh. if o'lvls is in nov, then i have july, aug, sept and oct more. tht makes 4 mths. which is 16 weeks. which is 112 days. which is 112x24hrs. okay enough. but it leaves me with 2 weeks per subject to study. and if i have like, 20+topics to study per sub, tht leaves me with around 3 topics per day. non stop studying. :(

...and i havent include time for doing tys, fiveyrseries, other schl papers.

ah, aft doing the counting, i dont want tiem to pass faster to finish the mids. cause finishing the mids would mean arrival of prelims. i need to get below 10 pts!!

and mid yrs i alr have 6 pts for 3 subs. tht makes me the allowance of 4 pts for 3 other subs. means i must get 2 A1s and 1 A2. =( mission impossible? dont forget, its the SCIENCES LEH. maybe geog i can try. LOL. lit, perhaps?

its 8-9 more days more till exam ends, to a certain extent, yes im kinda excited for the end to come. plus for other crazy reason. aye. hahaha. oh gosh. i still cant believe it, the o's are coming. cant we just skip the o's and go for our first 3 mths :/ bah.

ok i'll try my very best not to blog anymore. and not to come online. perhaps on msn but not physically there.

oh my, i feel so sad after knowing its 16 more weeks. LOL.

2006-06-19T00:03:00.000+08:00

im super duper uber ultra mega very bored, and no one's talking to me on msn! >:(

2006-06-18T23:10:00.000+08:00

i still can rmb a yr ago, i was so disappointed tht i was the bm instead of the dm. but as i look back now, it wasnt that bad afterall.

i cant believe a yr has passed by so quickly. i cant believe i've led the band through many band pracs, thru the genting competition, 2006 cca fair, hougang chinatown perf, and even Emmanuel VI.

although i may aspire to join jc bands like perhaps, acjc, but i know it'd never be the same. the crazy juniors. the mad rush to get out of schl before the aunty scold us for staying till so late. the ever-so-lame sir. the slacktionals. who else but the PL band?

PL band has made a mark in my life and has infused passion for music in me. it changed my life :)

i'll miss you, PL band. but yes, life has to move on, and it will. the memories from band will be held on dearly :)

2006-06-18T10:20:00.000+08:00

whats my real identity?

a question tht ive been pondering over since sec3, and ive still yet to find the answer. friendship has always been a problem in my upper sec life. but does the problem lies with me or the society?

maybe it's my fault. i dont know. i feel tht im a very changed person from who i used to be. becoming more and more introvert, putting on a facade more often, and i find myself standing alone more frequently. which is my real identity exactly then? the person who's always outcasted in class? or the chirpy person on msn chatting away every night? i'm so different in real life as compared to virtual life. when people chat with me online, i dont think i sound dao. like, eg, i make an effort to reply somehow. but in real life.. sometimes when people try to make a conversation with me, i really don't know how to reply. so i'd just nod and "oh.." and smile. and i wont know what to say. why?

everyday when i wake up, i feel so immune and kinda numbed to whats going on around me. i grow kinda sick going out, and instead im enjoying my time online the whole night till the mornings. kinda scary :/ maybe its easier for me to put on facades online.

i really wish i could restart life all over again. maybe i wouldnt have chose pl as my schl if i were to live again. to end up in pl was a beautiful mistake. why beautiful? because of the pl band :)

oh, u might say, then i thought u got your band friends? yes, so what? i grow to realise its tough to be close to them. they have their own circle of friends in their classes. they have their own life. and its difficult to be best friends/very close friends with people who don't share the same social circle. somehow you'll still feel very distant at certain point of time.

i dont know wheres my satisfaction in life. then again, aye, maybe i'm asking too much from life.

2006-06-16T22:11:00.000+08:00

(while we were crossing road near SPH and an area of housing estate's carpark)
mary: careful.. got cars!
me: huh. cross lah, where got cars.
mary: there are many cars, but they're just not moving! (refering to the cars parked at the carpark -_-)
me&cel: hahahahha.

time to turn to my guitar to get rid of all negative feelings :/ i think the art of music is beautiful. although i only know how to play 2 songs on the guitar (incomplete ones somemore), music still makes me feel better somehow. :]

2006-06-16T07:35:00.000+08:00

i feel cranky cause im still lack of 4 hrs to make for my compulsory 8 hrs of sleep. bah, i was tossing and turning at 230am and i couldnt sleep lah. haha.

cramps dont help to my crankiness either.

time to head for schl.

i need to find the satisfaction in life.

2006-06-16T00:31:00.000+08:00

muse: a night to remember
guess its really a night to remember. haha. thnx to joshua who subsidised $10 for my circle seat. haha, yeah went with joshua, kenneth(koh) and benedict. aye, i want my GOLDEN TICKET back :(

well anyway, i didnt rrly manage t study today :( im way behind my studyign schedule lah, so much for completing physics by today. hurhur. and i still need to brush up my chem. plus, i havent studied my humans. exams in 1week time. sighhh. chi o's oral in 1 week's time.

handover on monday, time passed so fast, its alr been a yr.. sigh, going for concerts make me miss band more. im gonna play my eupho on monday heh heh heh :D

haha, along the way home. thought thru lotsa stuff once again. gotten a lil emo. haha. tsk, im always thinking of stuff on my way home. and its always negative. aye. hahah. maybe aft a sleep i'll be back to the chirpy me again :]

alrighty, brenda wants me t do this. here goes.

What were you doing in secondary school?
1. making music with band :]
2. going out with band people aft schl.
3.trying to siam from principal
4. attempting t make myself study
5. studying last min for test/exams
6. disturbing band juniors
7. tap on ppl's right shoulder and walk away to their left. LOL.
8. errr, trying to stay awake in science lessons
9. eat during recess? haha. i dont know alr.

Five of your favourite singers / bands?
1. (agrees with Brenda) PL CONCERT BAND!
2. Jack's mannequin
3. yellowcard
4. lin jun jie
5. the wreckers

Five things you would do if you were a millionaire?
1. new wardrobe
2. new phone? i dont know
3. eupho mouthpiece
4. learn theory music
5. travel ard the world.

Five things you like doing?
1. SLEEP
2. SHOP
3. sing
4. play my eupho.
5. use the comp

Things you would never buy, wear or get
1. barney
2. purple and green polka dotted top? LOL.

Five people to do this?
1.anyone
2.who
3.reads
4.my
5.blog

virtual and reality. i guess sometimes people are just different in how they behave in these two very different worlds.

2006-06-14T23:34:00.000+08:00

if you happen to love guzheng music..

Grandioso of Hundred Guzhengs 2006
presented by Blue Ocean Guzheng Association

Date: 18th June
Time: 530pm
Venue: Singapore Botanic Gardens Shaw Foundation Symphony Stage
Free Admission

PL guzheng plus other schls gz ppl are playing.. its free, so go support if you can :]

2006-06-11T22:40:00.000+08:00

last words before i drop dead asleep on my bed...

i was randomly looking at friendsters, blogs. funny how my group of "close friends" shift around different people so quickly. what i mean is tht, a few months ago, i kept chatting with certain grp of ppl on msn like everyday or smth, then now i hardly chat with them and instead i chat with another few people. you get the idea. it seems tough to maintain on one bestie or something hur? aye, will the friends that i chat often with right now, end up to be like strangers in weeks/months/years to come?

life is sososo uncertain.

and blocked nose is killing me, but boredom has half killed me already. no one's talking to me on msn except for brenda who msg me to tell me about the drama series LOL. okay, i shall sleep and i think im too lazy to go for my jogging tmr morning ):

and oh, im gonna start studying tomorrow. YES, sheree's gonna study! like woahwoahwoah! LOL. i feel like going changi airport t study. so if anyone's interest t head there to study before schl reopen can leave me a tag (: i need to go ikea to get stuffs for juniors too ): so little time, so much t do!

2006-06-11T00:14:00.000+08:00

acjc tune in.

we were early, super early. well anyway. gotten separated from one another for games (expected.) and luckily shiying was in my grp. emily too. got to know a few other people. so yes, we gamed. aft that gotten into our sections and lunched. got to know another few people. then combine playing. i'm just not up to their standards. i cant sight read, i cant transpost. however it was still kinda cool playing gelato (okay, ATTEMPTING to play) and really sight reading Mission impossible. hunchback isnt tht bad. turandot is mad. overall was quite a fun tune in. i think i'll be lookin forward to more tune ins by other jcs in later part of the year.

think i shld consider acjc since theres affiliation points plus some ppl there are quite cool and fun. but ha, its like damn far for me. still must change mrt. madness. plus the walk from mrt to the schl.. if i'm like, left 3 mins to be late, confirm late ah! run also cannot make it ha!

why cant they built all my desired jcs like near my area?

aye, my 4 hr math/amaths tuition starts again tomorrow. -groans.

2 more weeks to sch reopens. which means, only 2 more weeks for studying before mid yrs part2 come aft sch reopen. -_- sec4 = no life.